Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Hmm Throw Out the Old...


“Be who you are and say what you feel because people who mind don’t matter and people who matter don’t mind.” – Dr. Seuss

So I was sitting here thinking about what I can do to become a better mother, daughter, sister, aunt, cousin, friend, coworker, etc and the quote above came to mind. I remember reading it many times before and not thinking much about it, but today for whatever reason I couldn't shake it.  

All I can do is be the best me possible, who knows me will get that. Those that don't, well they probably don't significantly impact my life anyway. Not necessarily a new idea, but one I struggle with often, because I do fall in and out of the desire to be understood. I do desire to improve my relationships with people. I do care what others think. Just being real. However, ultimately I need to work on being a better me. That person will attract what's needed to stay positive. So, in turn I just need to start cleaning house in more ways than one.
Journey light,

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

*Blows dust off blog*

Hmm, since I'm not working summer school I need to do something with myself. Should I share all the fantastic teacher tips and plans I'm working on for 2013-2014? Uhm. No. Teaching is my career, not my life. Which leads me to why I'm really here. My life has been all about winding down the last few months of school. Sad I know, but when you're single and your one and only is an adult, it becomes very easy to become totally consumed with your other "kids". Oh and although no longer having a car has been working for me, it apparently doesn't work for most fellas. Funny because I don't ask anyone to roll me around Atlanta and according to my sis, I'm always on the go. But that's another post altogether.  Anywho, now that all of that is behind me and before I allow online PDs and Common Core inspired publications to fully engulf my summer, I'm renewing some commitments. One in particular -that book I've been promising my mom. Until next time......journey light.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

The Game-changer: Saying What's On Your Mind

"El que no llora, no mama."

Cancer's Horoscope (Jun 21 - Jul 22) 
Saturday, March 23, 2013

When confronted with unpleasant situations, you often pull into your shell where
you are safely out of harm's way. Unfortunately, the danger of this evasive strategy is
that your unexpressed anger may create more problems now than a short-lived conflict.
You have a chance to positively impact your weekend, but you must be willing to take
a risk and let others know why you aren't happy. Getting your feelings out into the open
can be the game-changer you need to shake up your life.

After reading my horoscope today, I found the above quote to be a perfect fit. Translated the quote means "He who does not cry, does not suckle" or what we know as "A closed mouth does not get fed." This lesson on assertiveness took me years to learn, as well as how to apply it.  A character trait that once defeated me was to not say anything in order to avoid arguing or pushing away someone I wanted in my life. The problem in that was two-fold.  I pondered the situation until I was emotionally weak leaving me without a voice in the friendship/relationship. IF When I finally did bring it up, it was after something else had occurred.  I was also on edge due to multitude of other things I hadn't addressed early on. The bubble would burst -here comes the argument.  An argument I initially attempted to avoid. Once that bridge was crossed, anything and everything, and I place emphasis on EVERYTHING came out of my mouth. Not pretty at all. 

Today, I won't say that I'm a different person. Just older and wiser ;-). I've learned to simply say what's on my mind, while taming my tongue. It was a necessary lesson that now assists me in moving forward and discerning who I should move forward with, even if I truly care for the person. I understand that expressing my thoughts will not always go my way, but I also am enlightened to who around me will listen. We can always agree to disagree. But what I can't have is someone in my circle that is only concerned about their own needs. I believe we all carry a trait of narcissism but the simplest courtesies to another can go the distance. After all, sometimes it really is just that simple. :-)

Journey light,

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Simply Tell Yourself...Live Deeply

"People living deeply have 
no fear of death." 
~Anais Nin 

Today many of my friends are attending a vision board gathering. I opted not to. After posting this, I have a long list of not-so-grand tasks awaiting me. Not to mention, I've finally accepted my issues are not designing my vision(s). It is implementing them. 

A couple of days ago, a friend of mine who is truly a free spirit and an inspiration to many around her including myself, posed a question. "What is your BIGGEST DREAM?? If there were no considerations and money is not a factor." Now surely this is a question we've all pondered and tossed around with friends numerous times. Personally, it is a question that I cannot answer seriously without first addressing a major obstacle. FEAR. 

I think of myself as a positive person. I'm all for trying new things. I believe in loving and living. I'm still working on some hang ups though and there is still a large portion of my life that I don't leave to adventure.  As hard as I try to combat those pessimistic thoughts that run through my head, I cannot totally escape them.  I over analyze. I try to line up my conditions perfectly in order to at least achieve a 91% comfort level before leaping. I make excuses. But I'm getting tired and have finally reached an uncomfortable level of satisfaction within comfortable surroundings. So I'm learning to tell myself more and more - start REALLY LIVING NOW!

Journey light,

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

LOTD: New Year, New Look, New Energy!

2day I'm grateful 4 my Creator, 
another beautiful day, appreciative parents, 
the laughter of children, and continued patience!

So yesterday I was really feeling myself. Maybe because I TRULY enjoyed my time off and am happy to be back at work with the kiddos this week. HAHAHA! Seriously, I always return ready to run a marathon and love to see the children in their new outfits describing their newest gadget!